Trying to keep myself in "check".....

As usual we have been really busy. Busy is good though....to a point I guess. This last month we had a garage sale, celebrated Father's Day, been very busy at work, sold lots of Molly's clothes on Facebook and planning Molly's big first birthday party. I can't believe she is going to be 1 years old tomorrow. This is where I am trying to keep myself in "check"! I have been trying really hard to hold back my tears! I just need to let them out and I think I will be good....hehe!
When Blake was a baby I was so excited for each new step he would take. I couldn't wait to see what new thing he would learn. I felt the same way about Coleton. But with Molly it is so different. I am sad. I am sad to see her grow so fast. I am sad to hand over her baby items to someone else. I know it is silly to keep them but it just makes me sad. I know she is our last baby and I will never be able to experience those infant "first times" again. I think I was so excited to see Blake and Coleton take new steps because I knew in my heart there might be just one more baby. After having Molly I know 100% that we are done. Our life is perfect with the 3 children we have but I can't help but feel a little sad. There is no greater feeling than to have your baby laying on your chest and fully depending on you. That bond is incredible. I just do not want her to grow up! This last year flew by and I just want time to slow down a bit!

Then I have been putting off signing Coleton up for preschool? Why? I don't know. I know I can't keep my kids small forever but it is just hard to let go!